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  • Doing Better

    Doing Better

    I feel more relaxed in my home now, especially as Spring is beginning. I am looking forward to the summer. When I moved in September I needed to get a lot of things in order to make this place my home. Many days it was overwhelming as I had no support. I shared this journey…

  • Tired of Sociatial Pressure

    Tired of Sociatial Pressure

    I find now being on the Paliperidone depot I have less bandwidth to do things. Doing the domestic chores and a walk is close to my limit. In 2019 I was on a low dose of quetiapine but could do more like run marathons. I feel happier now and can settle on this – if…

  • Grateful Of Home

    Grateful Of Home

    These days I feel very grateful living alone in my flat. I experience a lot of peace and quiet. Something I didn’t get when I was homeless in hospital for 4.5 months hospital and then a hotel for 6 weeks. At the moment I just feel I want to hide away from people. I don’t…

  • Gary Lineker

    Gary Lineker

    I have to say the discourse on refugees has really shook me up lately. I’ve felt like Gary Linker for some time on the rhetoric that’s being used. As a mental patient and once homeless I have experienced the harsh attitudes of being treated like vermin. It was validation to me. If the formal human…

  • Life Thoughts

    Life Thoughts

    I find these days I’m a lot more at peace with my life. I feel like I have got a lot of my answers philosophically and spiritually. I feel I have lived. These days I’m just focused on staying well and avoiding triggers. I’m hopeful there is a heaven where I can meet my relatives.…

  • 1 Year Anniversary

    1 Year Anniversary

    It was actually this time last year I was sectioned into a psychiatric hospital. The Ukraine war had really scared me and I started watching BBC News too much. I couldn’t sleep so was going into the lounge to watch more News. My drop in concentration meant I missed my medication. I believe coming off…

  • Walks and Social Scripts

    Walks and Social Scripts

    I’m finding I’m relaxing more during these walks. Taking in the air and appreciating the quietness between the roads. It’s nice to see a few dogs too. One thing I have noticed with my mind that I am able to articulate now is a sense of social panic and continued preparation. My mind often conjures…

  • Easter Planning

    Easter Planning

    Last year I spent Christmas alone as I have most years since my mother died in 2016. After being homeless last year, I welcomed Christmas day as a day to treat myself. I usually just eat my dinner on my lap from my bed watching Star Trek. For Christmas I bought a small foldable table…

  • Green Shoots

    Green Shoots

    Recently I have been sowing all kinds of seeds in pots to grow vegetables this Summer. What I am trying to grow can be found in this initial blog here. I don’t have much experience in gardening. To be honest I wouldn’t say I have a serious interest. I like to watch plants grow especially…

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About me:

I’m Shaun, aged 42, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.