A blog, testimony and curated selection of my threads (meditations) on Twitter.
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Sovereignty of God
I was just reading in my book today about the sovereignty of God. The sovereignty of God is the idea that God is the ruler of creation and has the right to exercise his power over it. In the past it was an easy one to answer as I simply refused to believe in God…
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Beholding
I’ve read 4 chapters of my Christian book ‘Beholding‘. It was a struggle initially as the author kept trying to make the point that God and prayer shouldn’t be a transactional relationship. I had no issues with this as I’ve become less pleased with the greed of capitalism. I don’t like transactional relationships at all…
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A Thank you Poem to my Twitter Friends
Here is a a Thank You poem I wrote for Easter to my Twitter friends using ChatGPT (AI). Once more, I write with grateful heart,For followers who play their part.On Easter’s day, you’re my crew,With tweets that help me start anew. Promethazine, you recommend,And Star Trek episodes to mend.In times of crisis, dark and deep,Your…
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Reflections on Anti-psychotics
I was thinking what it’s like being on a high dose of anti-psychotics to a low dose/none. I am different between both. On a low dose I have a sense of adventure and push myself too hard. Sometimes I feel bulletproof and have to be careful of not pushing myself to crashing. On a higher…
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A Poem about me
A poem I wrote about me using ChatGPT (AI) In Southend-on-Sea, by the rolling tide,Lives a man named Shaun, with Star Trek pride.A collection vast, on shelves displayed, DVDs and Blu-rays, a media parade.Each Sunday morn, as bells do chime,He finds his peace, in sacred time.Communion bread, the wine so fine,A moment’s pause, divine and…
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Thoughts on Communion
I do appreciate participating in Holy Communion at Church on Sundays. I find with my condition and unemployment I am stigmatised and demonised by much of the media and thus society. Confessing our sins each week at Communion helps me let go of such negativity and ill feeling. Eating the bread and drinking the wine…
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Typical Days
I had a nice day today. Exactly what I needed. I went for a short walk and stayed alone at home. Watched Television, mainly dogs, The Simpsons and sometimes news on in background. I did reading of CS Lewis in Christianity. Will do some Bible reading shortly and prayers. That’s how most of my days…
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Hidden Suicide?
I have often blogged about my own episodes of psychosis, autism and mental illness experiences on Twitter and on this blog. The people I follow and naturally the algorithm serves up news of other peoples death by suicide, neglect or other reasons. Quite often I have noticed people that have killed themselves have had their…
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Austerity and Stoicism
Since the banking crisis of 2008, times have became increasingly more difficult for many people in Britain and the world. Since 2010 the “free at the point of use” NHS has declined as a health service where it is no longer number 1 in the world for many categories. The NHS waiting list was around…
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Post Archives
My Favourite LiveD Experience Articles
- The Social Contract
- I’m a Political Football
- Colonialism in the UK Today
- Heresy and Market Fundamentalism
- Social Sins
- Psychosis: A Heart Attack of the Mind
- Mindblindness
- A Solitary Life
- Not Living My Full Potential
- Stigma and Loneliness
- DIM US
- How I found Faith
- The Lords Supper
- Medication Side Effects
- Negative Feedback Loops
- Exclusion in Practise
- The Making of Comparisons
- Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and Spiral Dynamics
Media I relate to my own experiences
- Man of Steel
- Batman Vs Superman
- Star Trek TNG ‘The Measure of a Man’
- Star Trek TNG: Who Watches the Watchers
- Star Trek TNG: Darmok
- Star Trek TNG: Tin Man
- The Economy is a Casino
- Star Trek Enterprise Review: Carbon Creek
- Star Trek Enterprise Review Dear Doctor
About me:
I’m Shaun, aged 40, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.
I’ve been for a walk to near the pharmacy and back. I had my foldable stick in my rucksack. My leg felt awkward but I can see an improvement. I didn’t go to the pharmacy as was just testing if I could walk there for when my meds are ready on Friday. It was confidence building.
I’ve been listening to Frank Sinatra and similar music again tonight. I’ve been feeling rather low. I just feel overwhelmed by the world. I feel staying well is a full time job. I am very worried about the future. I feel like I am going to be put under pressure I can’t handle.
The last few weeks when my back worsened into a right leg problem has been overwhelming. I’m not good coping with change and trying to manage things differently. I’m hoping now I am turning a corner and things are improving.