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  • Almost Survived 2025

    Almost Survived 2025

    Well 2025 is almost done. It’s hard to believe I have survived another year.  I was very anxious about the year but I seem to have got through it ok. I haven’t been in a psychiatric hospital this year which is brilliant. I spent so many years in and out of them but since 2023…

  • Things are going ok

    Things are going ok

    Well it’s been a very hot summer this year in 2025. The BBC reported that it’s likely been the hottest UK summer on record by a significant margin. I particularly struggle with this flat as it gets very hot but I do benefit in the winter. During the hottest periods I have had my portable…

  • I Wrote to my MP

    I Wrote to my MP

    I recently wrote about the Benefit Reforms recently and how they could affect me. I think a 4 point score requirement for one descriptor is too harsh and excludes people with mental illness and autism who tend to be affected in more breadth across all the descriptors scoring 1 to 2 points. I know I…

  • Medication Increase and New Fidget Toys

    Medication Increase and New Fidget Toys

    Recently I had my Paliperidone (Xeplion) anti-psychotic depot injection increased from 100mg to 150mg four weekly. It’s at the maximum dose now so I guess that’s it for any more increases. On my previous dose I found towards the last week I had a decline in mood with sometimes suicidal thoughts quite often. I would…

  • Difficulties with Coping

    Difficulties with Coping

    I find these days more than when I was in my early 20’s that I burn out much more quickly. Although I still suffered burn out after a few weeks or months these days in my 40’s it seems to happen in a matter of days. I have been learning to pace myself. I try…

  • My Pillars of Wellness

    My Pillars of Wellness

    Everyone has different ways of coping and I’m no different. I was thinking today what were the core qualities or pillars that have helped me survive in recent years. I have identified Jesus, a home, an income, medication and Snoopy as my core pillars of wellness. Home After being homeless in 2022 I am much…

  • Counselling

    Counselling

    I have recently been seeing a counsellor. I have used counsellors on occasion but they have been very expensive. Usually I would see a counsellor for 2-3 months or so on a weekly basis. They usually practiced CBT and general psychotherapy. In late 2016 to early 2017 I saw a counsellor weekly from a charity.…

  • Benefit Reforms

    Benefit Reforms

    I presently claim Universal Credit (UC) and Personal independence Payment (PIP) for my disability condition of Autism and Schizoaffective Disorder. In 2022, after my boyfriend made me homeless in a psychiatric hospital I was found unfit to work and placed in the Limited Capability for Work-related Activity (LCWRA). Before I was with my boyfriend I…

  • 8 Months on from Prosecution

    8 Months on from Prosecution

    About 2 years ago I wrote about a situation where I had Psychosis in 2023 and punched a police officer in the A&E of hospital. Although I immediately sent a written apology the police decided to prosecute me. It has been a very stressful time with many court hearings. I was interviewed by a Forensic…

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I’m Shaun, aged 41, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.