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  • Star Trek Picard Season 2

    Star Trek Picard Season 2

    Today I finished my rewatch of Star Trek Picard season 2. The series made alot more sense this time round. Probably because I was previously homeless in a psychiatric hospital watching it on my tablet. It was a very stressful time though as always Star Trek was a great comfort. This was alot better season…

  • My Belief in God

    My Belief in God

    In this thread, I am going to talk about my belief in God. If this doesn’t interest you then I hope you make better use of your day. If your agnostic or interested in knowing and understanding me then please continue I am not attempting to indoctrinate you. An early question I had before believing…

  • Bizarre Behaviour

    Bizarre Behaviour

    I mentioned yesterday how exhibiting bizarre behaviour has got me sectioned. Sometimes it was psychosis other times it was me applying the wrong social rules or forgetting social rules under extreme stress. Though many people would just call all of that psychosis. My understanding of how society has worked has been largely rule based. I…

  • My Diagnosis

    My Diagnosis

    I was formally assessed and diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) in 2019. Usually when I’ve been in a psychiatric hospital I’m treated as a patient with diagnosed Schizoaffective disorder that occurred in 2012. Although I have been sectioned 5 times since my ASD diagnosis it was only in my last admission in 2022 that…

  • Made Perfect in Weakness

    Made Perfect in Weakness

    I remember when I got discharged from hospital in the summer I had to pay £40 for a taxi to carry all my belongings. Then I had to move my luggage every 10 metres from the back of the council office to the front as I couldn’t carry it all. I think it was 37c…

  • Why Does My Care Fail?

    Why Does My Care Fail?

    Why does my care fail? If you follow me you are probably aware I have been sectioned and hospitalised many times. Fundamentally I would say it’s our Neoliberal and market fundamentalist culture which is the root cause. Though I’ll avoid an overtly philosophical discussion. The principal issue for a lot of my hospitalisations initially were…

  • Picard My Dad

    Picard My Dad

    I’m watching Picard Season 2 and Picard feels more like the character I knew in Star Trek The Next Generation in the 90’s. I didn’t have a father so I adopted Picard as my fatherly figure growing up. Picard seemed like a wise man to me. I think I related a lot to Data and…

  • Supported Work Placements

    Supported Work Placements

    I have good discrete math skills mainly in algorithms. I believe the challenge many like me have is lack of workplace adjustments. Benefits flexibility, Part time, remote working, some flexible accomodations and social accommodations etc.. What I think would be useful are IPS (Individual Placement and Support) workers that are trained autism mentors.Who can do…

  • Pressure to Conform

    Pressure to Conform

    I think there is a huge pressure to conform. Even among members of marginalised groups. I’m incapable of conforming except from my own rational reason or due to capitulating from oppressive state violence. It’s probably one reason why I am alone. That’s not to say I can’t be respectful. If I understand the logic of…

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About me:

I’m Shaun, aged 41, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.