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  • Lamb to the Slaughter

    Lamb to the Slaughter

    I think alot of neurotypical people would be depressed and suicidal in my situation. Apart from going to Church I’m ostracised from society and having my Mum and stepdad passing I am very much isolated. Some of it is due to my condition and some of it due to my economic standing. I struggled most…

  • Well Into 2026

    Well Into 2026

    So we are well into 2026 and there has been a few changes in my life. My probation finished in the new year with my last appointment in December 2025. It’s good to not have to go to that anymore. Also my Mental Health Treatment Requirement (MHTR) ended in February 2026. Although the MHTR didn’t…

  • Almost Survived 2025

    Almost Survived 2025

    Well 2025 is almost done. It’s hard to believe I have survived another year.  I was very anxious about the year but I seem to have got through it ok. I haven’t been in a psychiatric hospital this year which is brilliant. I spent so many years in and out of them but since 2023…

  • Things are going ok

    Things are going ok

    Well it’s been a very hot summer this year in 2025. The BBC reported that it’s likely been the hottest UK summer on record by a significant margin. I particularly struggle with this flat as it gets very hot but I do benefit in the winter. During the hottest periods I have had my portable…

  • I Wrote to my MP

    I Wrote to my MP

    I recently wrote about the Benefit Reforms recently and how they could affect me. I think a 4 point score requirement for one descriptor is too harsh and excludes people with mental illness and autism who tend to be affected in more breadth across all the descriptors scoring 1 to 2 points. I know I…

  • Medication Increase and New Fidget Toys

    Medication Increase and New Fidget Toys

    Recently I had my Paliperidone (Xeplion) anti-psychotic depot injection increased from 100mg to 150mg four weekly. It’s at the maximum dose now so I guess that’s it for any more increases. On my previous dose I found towards the last week I had a decline in mood with sometimes suicidal thoughts quite often. I would…

  • Difficulties with Coping

    Difficulties with Coping

    I find these days more than when I was in my early 20’s that I burn out much more quickly. Although I still suffered burn out after a few weeks or months these days in my 40’s it seems to happen in a matter of days. I have been learning to pace myself. I try…

  • My Pillars of Wellness

    My Pillars of Wellness

    Everyone has different ways of coping and I’m no different. I was thinking today what were the core qualities or pillars that have helped me survive in recent years. I have identified Jesus, a home, an income, medication and Snoopy as my core pillars of wellness. Home After being homeless in 2022 I am much…

  • Counselling

    Counselling

    I have recently been seeing a counsellor. I have used counsellors on occasion but they have been very expensive. Usually I would see a counsellor for 2-3 months or so on a weekly basis. They usually practiced CBT and general psychotherapy. In late 2016 to early 2017 I saw a counsellor weekly from a charity.…

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I’m Shaun, aged 41, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.