A blog, testimony and curated selection of my threads (meditations) on Twitter.
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Reflections on Last Year
The last year has been a strange but also a humbling experience. Living homeless in a psychiatric ward for 4 and half months (although only sectioned for 6 weeks) meant I had few luxuries & privileges.I’m redefining luxuries here for many.Going out to the fountain to drink Pepsi in Basildon town centre was a luxury.…
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Exclusion in Practise
I’ve talked previously how having your rent paid and living on benefits isn’t a dream. That having found my faith makes me feel fortunate. I have mentioned that what comes with living with autism and being on benefits means there is much Stigma and Loneliness. In this blog, I will try to describe how social…
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The Making of Comparisons
What if I say said to you, that you don’t need to work and can live on a government pension with your housing paid for a year or two? To a lot of people that would sound like a dream and many would take it up. Most people may feel they have a lot to…
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Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and Spiral Dynamics
In this blog, I’m going to introduce Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and Spiral Dynamics. I will briefly explain each of these psychological theories and how I use them to manage my Psycho-Social challenges that come with being Autistic. Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs is a motivational theory in psychology comprising of 5 or 6 levels of…
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Psych Memories: 2015
This may contain upsetting content about suicide. Please don’t read this if you think it will trigger you. This is first of a series of blog posts I will write about my past in using mental health services. NHS mental health services have improved in some areas and got worse in other areas here. I…
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Emergency Bag
I have been in psychiatric hospitals many times in my life. At least once a year since 2010 but it has been known to happen several times in one year. My stay is usually between 2 to 6 weeks. Though sometimes it has been a week or for several months. Since my Mum and Stepdad…
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Peace with Life
I’ve been trying really hard in the last year to make peace with life and death. How I was treated homeless was a wake up call. Church, Baptism and volunteering at the homeless charity are all part of that. I’m convinced I could be eliminated by the state at some point. Whether that’s in a…
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How I found Faith
How if found my Christian Faith is a difficult question to answer. I don’t think I can completely explain it in a blog as I believe God has to seek us as well. Though I believe God’s invitation is initially open to everyone. There isn’t a 5 step programme in becoming Christian. Many Christians find…
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Commentary on Universal Credit
Not sure how anyone lives on the standard allowance of Universal Credit of £292.22 a month for under 25 and £368.74 a month for over 25. Usually you need some of it to top up rent payments as housing benefit or UC housing element isn’t enough. Then you have costs like:Food, council tax, electricity, gas,…
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My Favourite LiveD Experience Articles
- The Social Contract
- I’m a Political Football
- Colonialism in the UK Today
- Heresy and Market Fundamentalism
- Social Sins
- Psychosis: A Heart Attack of the Mind
- Mindblindness
- A Solitary Life
- Not Living My Full Potential
- Stigma and Loneliness
- DIM US
- How I found Faith
- The Lords Supper
- Medication Side Effects
- Negative Feedback Loops
- Exclusion in Practise
- The Making of Comparisons
- Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and Spiral Dynamics
Media I relate to my own experiences
- Man of Steel
- Batman Vs Superman
- Star Trek TNG ‘The Measure of a Man’
- Star Trek TNG: Who Watches the Watchers
- Star Trek TNG: Darmok
- Star Trek TNG: Tin Man
- The Economy is a Casino
- Star Trek Enterprise Review: Carbon Creek
- Star Trek Enterprise Review Dear Doctor
About me:
I’m Shaun, aged 39, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.
21c in my flat and it feels chilly. It was 21c yesterday and I was wearing a T-shirt but I wasn’t feeling cold. It must be the humidity.
Wore my sunflower 🌻 lanyard again today. I’m becoming less conscious of it. Someone asked me in Church what is was today and I explained.
Got to Church again. Seen to be on form in attending lately.
Seems strange at 40 that I’m actually middle age. 40 years feels like a long time. The idea of having to live even longer feels me with dread. I’m ready to die and go to heaven.