A blog, testimony and curated selection of my threads (meditations) on Twitter.
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Heresy and Market Fundamentalism
Heresy is a belief or opinion contrary to orthodox religious (usually Christian) doctrine. The Spanish Inquisition was about identifying a person believing in or practising religious heresy (e.g. not believing in the Catholic faith). Similar persecution occurred in the UK against Catholics that were not Protestant. Believing differently to the mainstream view of the present is always going…
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I’m a Political Football
As someone with a severe mental illness* and being Autistic I have increasingly realised how vulnerable I am. Not just due to the nature of my conditions that have social disadvantages from being not accepted and ostracised but also in relation to my lack of political power. Things like money, social status and memberships can…
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Things Going Reasonably Well Considering
Things in my life seem to be going reasonably at well at present compared to previous experiences in my life. I have a quiet and peaceful home after all. I am fortunate to live alone. Last year I was homeless for 4 and half months in a psychiatric hospital. Psychiatric hospitals have restrictions that make…
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Musings on my Existence
I find the demands of society stressful. Particularly in relating to people and those in authority. People are selfish and I find I can never please them. Whatever I do it’s not good enough. In many situations often find myself alone, not fitting in and sometimes even bullied. I find my current setup the most…
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Mindfulness to Contemplative Prayer
I have wrote previously how I have been reading about Buddhism and meditating again. In 2019, I first read the book The Art of Happiness: A Handbook for Living which contains a western perspective of a psychiatrist in discussion with the Dalai Lama. It introduced me to some teachings of Buddhism that I found intriguing…
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Expecting Death Soon
You only have to put on the television to see how awful the world is becoming in 2023. It is truly becoming hell on earth. Even in a rich country like the US the gap between the Rich and Poor is so huge that you hear of many people on the street with no medical…
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Some Improvement with Meds & Buddhism
Things have been rather more difficult in the last few months. Though since I had my 4 weekly Paliperidone depot increased from 50mg to 75mg almost 3 weeks ago I have been feeling more calmer. I seem more at ease and less scared of the future. I do though still feel the future looks bleak.…
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No Win Scenario
If I could relive my life again I would love to be born from rich parents who loved me, who had loads of contacts and also were part of a Church family. Why? I wouldn’t be so much for the material things but in having opportunities I never had. People that have this can often…
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Analysis: Owning or Streaming Video
In this blog article I am going to share my analysis of streaming video content and owning it. It’s clear streaming is getting more expensive and having your eggs all in one basket could prove costly in the long term. I don’t just mean subscribing to multiple streaming platforms but being entirely dependant on streaming…
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Post Archives
My Favourite LiveD Experience Articles
- The Social Contract
- I’m a Political Football
- Colonialism in the UK Today
- Heresy and Market Fundamentalism
- Social Sins
- Psychosis: A Heart Attack of the Mind
- Mindblindness
- A Solitary Life
- Not Living My Full Potential
- Stigma and Loneliness
- DIM US
- How I found Faith
- The Lords Supper
- Medication Side Effects
- Negative Feedback Loops
- Exclusion in Practise
- The Making of Comparisons
- Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and Spiral Dynamics
Media I relate to my own experiences
- Man of Steel
- Batman Vs Superman
- Star Trek TNG ‘The Measure of a Man’
- Star Trek TNG: Who Watches the Watchers
- Star Trek TNG: Darmok
- Star Trek TNG: Tin Man
- The Economy is a Casino
- Star Trek Enterprise Review: Carbon Creek
- Star Trek Enterprise Review Dear Doctor
About me:
I’m Shaun, aged 40, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.
My back/bottom makes my mattress feel like almost concrete. Though this is a new mattress I got earlier this year. A few days ago it felt very comfortable. Body is just not in a good place right now. I hope it gets better soonish. It is a lot to deal with.
I find the algorithm of twitter very shocking lately. Keeps serving up far right and often racist tweets from frightening accounts of 100k+. I have to add them to my mute list.
Even laying down seems to be aching this afternoon. Not sure if going out this morning to Aldi has aggravated it. Definitely not in a great situation at the moment. Thank god I haven’t got any pressure to work or anything.