A blog, testimony and curated selection of my threads (meditations) on Twitter.

TRIGGER WARNING: This website may cause upset. Discretion advised.

  • Work Pressures

    Work Pressures

    In 2015 I had enough with life. I took an overdose and tried to drown myself. It was after that point I had ECT in hospital. For many years after I felt guilty I couldn’t work. I still bump into people today that seemed to want me to feel guilty for that. For a long…

  • Game Theory

    Game Theory

    In 2017, I learned about Game Theory. It was a shocking but exciting revelation. I lost my innocence in that I understood that people can play games. This was when I finally started to make sense of people and that socialising can be a complex equation. Game theory is a branch of applied maths that…

  • Disabled for being abled

    Disabled for being abled

    I’ve always been a person that has felt the world intensively. I am very sensitive to how people behave towards me. It’s also my mode in finding answers to the world. As a child I was full of questions in understanding how the world works. I have one memory as a child of my Mum…

  • The Social Contract

    The Social Contract

    The social contract which largely originated in theory from the 17th and 18th century came about due to huge changes in how people perceived and lived. In England the influence of the Catholic church ended with the reformation of a Protestant Church. Nearly all people worked in agriculture with their families. Revolutions in organising agriculture…

  • Mark 12:17

    Mark 12:17

    Some Pharisees and Herodians were sent to Jesus to catch him in his words. They came to him and said, “Teacher, we know that you are a man of integrity. You aren’t swayed by others, because you pay no attention to who they are; but you teach the way of God in accordance with the…

  • 3 Year memory

    3 Year memory

    Around this time 3 years ago I was training to run my first marathon. It was a special time in my life. The mind, body and spirit actualised as one passion. I was on different medication back then. It felt like a gift from God. I ran several more that year then my stepdad died.…

  • Exodus: Gods and Kings

    Exodus: Gods and Kings

    Rewatching Exodus: Gods and Kings. I first watched it last year in hospital from my tablet computer. I had first read Exodus from the Bible. It’s about a King who wouldn’t let enslaved people be free for economic reasons. Moses is inspired by God to plead they be set free. The King refuses so God…

  • Taking Medication

    Taking Medication

    Alexa has reminded me to refill my nightly weekly pillbox. Seems I will be out of 1000mg Lithium on Sunday. So will start 800mg of Lithium Monday. I’m hopeing I will have more spoons to do things. I’m not necessarily convinced the medication helps as much as it hinders. My mind is too dependant to…

  • Lessons from being Homeless

    Lessons from being Homeless

    Being homeless last year by living in a psych hospital for 4.5 months and 6 weeks in a hotel was traumatic. Though I have learnt some valuable life lessons. However, I wouldn’t want anyone else to have to go through that. Some of these lessons I can think of are: Appreciate the essentials in life:…

Tags

Autism Benefits Books Economics Faith Film General Living Homelessness LGBTQIA+ Lived Experience Medication Meditation Mental Health Services Mental illness Philosophy Physical Media Poetry Psychology Psychosis Social Security Society Star Trek TV

Post Archives
My Favourite LiveD Experience Articles
Media I relate to my own experiences

About me:

I’m Shaun, aged 41, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.