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  • Star Trek TNG ‘The Measure of a Man’

    Star Trek TNG ‘The Measure of a Man’

    This afternoon I have been continuing my rewatch of Star Trek The Next Generation. I’m watching “The Measure of a Man”. In this episode Bruce Maddox wants to take Data away for disassembly and experimentation. Fortunately, Picard, argues for Data’s rights as an individual. Picard received advice from Guinan and she compared Androids in becoming…

  • Suicidal Urges

    Suicidal Urges

    I don’t know if other people get suicidal thoughts much.Though sometimes I get the thought to end it. Like this evening I have the thought of just picking up my rope, making a hangman noose and ending it.I won’t tonight. Having it all there just gives me peace. As I can move on. I am…

  • Lithium Reduced

    Lithium Reduced

    As permitted by the psychiatrist I lowered my Lithium dose from 1000mg to 800mg on Monday night. I think I am seeing a benefit. I feel less worn out in the morning. I seem to have got into Aldi earlier than usual this week. My motivation is low which I think is partly due to…

  • Psych Hospitals

    Psych Hospitals

    I think it’s sad people are dieing in psych hospitals. I think there should at least be separate wards for people severally suicidal and those who aren’t. This one size fits all policy is creating very sterile wards with no therapeutic benefit whatsoever. A ward where the rules prevent you doing almost anything including personal…

  • Supermarkets As A Blessing

    Supermarkets As A Blessing

    I visited Aldi earlier to do a big shop (2 bags) for dry goods. I will return tomorrow to buy some fresh food. It was reasonably quiet this morning which made it less stressful. Sometimes I try to stop and think to appreciate the supermarket. Years ago supermarkets didn’t exist and one had to go…

  • New Sensory Item

    New Sensory Item

    My new snuggle pup has arrived today. I’m going to call him snoopy. He is really nice to cuddle. Lovely and soft. Feels nice to press on my lips as well. Very comforting. Far better than I imagined. A special thank you to a Twitter friend for buying me him.

  • Book of Romans

    Book of Romans

    A few months back I was going to evening lectures at my Church weekly on the book of Romans in the Bible. After the 4th week I stopped because it was burning me out. I didn’t like being out late in the evenings repeatedly then I was taking my medication late which was unsettling. The…

  • Domestically Managing

    Domestically Managing

    On a Wednesday, Alexa reminds me to change to clean bedding. Then I wash and dry the used one. I think this has been the best I have taken care of myself at home. I used to forget or not care. I clean my kitchen and bathroom every 2, sometimes 3 weeks. Before I lived…

  • Appreciating Home

    Appreciating Home

    I am grateful to have my home. After being homeless in a psych hospital last year I have never appreciated having a home so much. Getting alone time in the hospital without being regulated in what I do was impossible. I depended on staff for tea, to use the laundry and eat. I am very…

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About me:

I’m Shaun, aged 42, I am a follower of Christ, diagnosed with Autism and Schizoaffective disorder. In this blog I discuss my reality, beliefs and interests. When you meet one person with Autism, you’ve met one person with Autism.