Tag: Lived Experience
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My Diagnosis
I was formally assessed and diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) in 2019. Usually when I’ve been in a psychiatric hospital I’m treated as a patient with diagnosed Schizoaffective disorder that occurred in 2012. Although I have been sectioned 5 times since my ASD diagnosis it was only in my last admission in 2022 that…
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Pressure to Conform
I think there is a huge pressure to conform. Even among members of marginalised groups. I’m incapable of conforming except from my own rational reason or due to capitulating from oppressive state violence. It’s probably one reason why I am alone. That’s not to say I can’t be respectful. If I understand the logic of…
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My Dark Matter Problem
I’m aware many Autistic people don’t believe in the Theory of Mind deficits and I respect that.I’m not so sure.I don’t believe I have a theory of mind at all. Perhaps that’s not due to autism but something else. I for a number of years have described it as my dark matter problem. Dark matter…
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Not a People Person
I’m come to the conclusion I am not a people person but I value the importance of sharing, community and helping each other.Going to Church was a sea change for me last year but I felt it was important to me to have a link with a church given that I believe in Christ’s teachings.…
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SodaStream Joy
One of the things that gives me so much Autistic joy is my SodaStream. A SodaStream machine contains a gas cylinder of carbon dioxide that you apply to water. You then add a syrup (flavour) to the fizzy water. I enjoy making them and I like the bubbles. I often make 1 bottle (1 litre…
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Not Optimistic About New year
I can’t say I feel optimistic about a happy new year. I’m amazed I’m actually seeing the new year without being homeless. It went on for too long. I guess after this year I’m dreading what next year has in store for me. I have been very badly beaten down emotionally this year. Spending 4.5…
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Lower Class Judgements
People in Britain seem to always have a very tough attitude against the lower classes and people on low incomes. Seem to always have the right answers from high above. Yet many I don’t think could handle the tough measures they dish out. From famous people, politicians, media people, academics, and doctors. You often find…
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Incorrect Social Moves
I’ve noticed more since my autism diagnosis that I don’t fit in. It’s very obvious to me now I’m not displaying the right social moves to be accepted. More than I realise. I think it takes people time to accept me. Like I think in my church they seem to be warming to me. One…
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Bad Memory
Sometimes I have bad memories that come to the surface. Today I was thinking of the time I passed out outside my front door at my former home. Neighbour called an ambulance who took me to hospital without my shoes, wallet and mobile phone. When I came to in hospital I don’t remember much. I…