Month: January 2023

  • My Diagnosis

    My Diagnosis

    I was formally assessed and diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) in 2019. Usually when I’ve been in a psychiatric hospital I’m treated as a patient with diagnosed Schizoaffective disorder that occurred in 2012. Although I have been sectioned 5 times since my ASD diagnosis it was only in my last admission in 2022 that…

  • Made Perfect in Weakness

    Made Perfect in Weakness

    I remember when I got discharged from hospital in the summer I had to pay £40 for a taxi to carry all my belongings. Then I had to move my luggage every 10 metres from the back of the council office to the front as I couldn’t carry it all. I think it was 37c…

  • Why Does My Care Fail?

    Why Does My Care Fail?

    Why does my care fail? If you follow me you are probably aware I have been sectioned and hospitalised many times. Fundamentally I would say it’s our Neoliberal and market fundamentalist culture which is the root cause. Though I’ll avoid an overtly philosophical discussion. The principal issue for a lot of my hospitalisations initially were…

  • Picard My Dad

    Picard My Dad

    I’m watching Picard Season 2 and Picard feels more like the character I knew in Star Trek The Next Generation in the 90’s. I didn’t have a father so I adopted Picard as my fatherly figure growing up. Picard seemed like a wise man to me. I think I related a lot to Data and…

  • Supported Work Placements

    Supported Work Placements

    I have good discrete math skills mainly in algorithms. I believe the challenge many like me have is lack of workplace adjustments. Benefits flexibility, Part time, remote working, some flexible accomodations and social accommodations etc.. What I think would be useful are IPS (Individual Placement and Support) workers that are trained autism mentors.Who can do…

  • Pressure to Conform

    Pressure to Conform

    I think there is a huge pressure to conform. Even among members of marginalised groups. I’m incapable of conforming except from my own rational reason or due to capitulating from oppressive state violence. It’s probably one reason why I am alone. That’s not to say I can’t be respectful. If I understand the logic of…

  • Star Trek Picard Season 2

    Star Trek Picard Season 2

    Well I completed my rewatch of Star Trek Picard Season 1. Overall I enjoyed it the 2nd time around more than the 1st. I picked up on alot of the story I missed before. Though I was mentally unwell at the time of its 1st airing due to the lockdowns from the pandemic. I don’t…

  • My Dark Matter Problem

    My Dark Matter Problem

    I’m aware many Autistic people don’t believe in the Theory of Mind deficits and I respect that.I’m not so sure.I don’t believe I have a theory of mind at all. Perhaps that’s not due to autism but something else. I for a number of years have described it as my dark matter problem. Dark matter…

  • Not a People Person

    Not a People Person

    I’m come to the conclusion I am not a people person but I value the importance of sharing, community and helping each other.Going to Church was a sea change for me last year but I felt it was important to me to have a link with a church given that I believe in Christ’s teachings.…