Month: January 2023
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The Economy is a Casino
A way of describing my #ActuallyAutistic life is like being trapped in a casino with no exit. Since I don’t have a job the casino gives me money to play.Sometimes I have to play to fit in but these days I’m focused on life support – essentials & small unnecessary luxuries. I’ve never been to…
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Gratitude and Sadness
One thing I have to remind myself is I am free from not making money. Money to me is much like Star Trek in it’s use of basic accounting for resources. Most people aren’t free from that and are fully engrossed in the Neoliberal World Order. I really appreciate having a home and had the…
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Star Trek TNG: The Traveller
I’m continuing to watch Star Trek TNG season 1. I have stumbled once again on the thoughtful episode of ‘The Traveller’. To be concise an alien takes the Enterprise to distant places of the unknown before returning the ship back to it’s known place of the galaxy. What makes this episode fascinating is it blends…
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Reflections
I have lurched from uncertainty to crisis in my life. Many identities have been assigned to me by others and by myself. Like the circles here. There was a force like gravity at my core that kept it all together. That core light was revealed to me in my most darkest moments. I never grew…
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My Search for acceptance
I’m possible. A Venn diagram of the barriers I face in meeting people that will accept me.
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People Like Me
I don’t have a crystal ball but I often think of different permutations of the future. In a dystopian future I don’t believe people like me will be round up and executed. They wouldn’t want martyrs like Jesus Christ dieing for Christian values. The crucifix would become popular. Though I do think effort could be…
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Star Trek Picard Season 2
Today I finished my rewatch of Star Trek Picard season 2. The series made alot more sense this time round. Probably because I was previously homeless in a psychiatric hospital watching it on my tablet. It was a very stressful time though as always Star Trek was a great comfort. This was alot better season…
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My Belief in God
In this thread, I am going to talk about my belief in God. If this doesn’t interest you then I hope you make better use of your day. If your agnostic or interested in knowing and understanding me then please continue I am not attempting to indoctrinate you. An early question I had before believing…
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Bizarre Behaviour
I mentioned yesterday how exhibiting bizarre behaviour has got me sectioned. Sometimes it was psychosis other times it was me applying the wrong social rules or forgetting social rules under extreme stress. Though many people would just call all of that psychosis. My understanding of how society has worked has been largely rule based. I…