About 2 years ago I wrote about a situation where I had Psychosis in 2023 and punched a police officer in the A&E of hospital. Although I immediately sent a written apology the police decided to prosecute me. It has been a very stressful time with many court hearings. I was interviewed by a Forensic Psychiatrist in May 2024 but unfortunately he had the opinion I had Mens rea (sanity). Therefore I had no case and was advised to plead guilty to Actual Bodily Harm (one punch). I decided to plead guilty, although I never denied punching the officer, I still maintain to this day I was delusional and lacked sanity.
My sentence was very harsh. I was given a 10 months suspended prison sentence suspended for 2 years, 2 years of probation, a Mental Health Treatment Requirement order and a fine of £687. I had no previous offenses.
My mental health treatment hasn’t changed, infact their considering discharging me from my care co-ordinator (mental health nurse) which doesn’t seem like a good idea but its part of a reorganisation. I have been seeing probation regularly, initially it was fortnightly but since the autumn it has been monthly. Unfortunately my probation officer always seems to be away so I have often seen cover people which has been frustrating.
The hosting of this blog is paid up until 2031. It is also archived online by various archive websites. Given the pressure to live is becoming so hard for people like me I expect I might not be around by then. So I see this website as a historical resource and warning of the challenges people like me face in the UK.
I have included the Forensic Psychiatrists report here, it is not entirely accurate but demonstrates what information the court had available to them at the time. I have redacted personal identifiable information. The report claimed I’m not always compliant with my medication which I tried to explain to the psychiatrist when I’m delusional I often stop taking my medication. That’s why in 2022 I chose to have a depot anti-psychotic injection to reduce the chances of becoming ill but as 2023 proved it isn’t always 100% effective.
Part of the delusions I was having at the time was that the DWP wanted me to kill myself. I thought some kind of special telepathy operation was in progress for them to bully me to kill myself. In light of the welfare reforms going through parliament now it only further fuels my paranoia. I believe the benefit cuts is a danger to autistic and mentally ill people like me. This blog is my story of my lived experience.